People who know me well would testify that I have stage fear and usually will hesitate to speak in front of a crowd. This year has been slightly different to me as I took up the opportunity to do a reading for the Christmas service(22nd December) in Brighton Vineyard Church.
As the usual fear gripped me, I began to tell myself that I will crush the devil this day. Even though I might not read the verses well enough I am going to do it today. I missed most of the message that day expect for the phrase "Fear not" as part of a worship song and yes I completed my reading though I stuttered in between.
I didn't have the feeling of embarrassment and I felt normal after the reading.
On the Christmas Eve, while I was attending the Service at St. Peter's Church, Brighton, I could only see the message "Do not be afraid" or that is what I could take in!
After the Service, while I was waiting for Jasmine to call me, as I was browsing some of the news channels I became interested in Pope's Christmas Message and out of all the messages embedded in his Message, the following struck me
"To us the Lord repeats, 'Do not be afraid.' ... And I, too, repeat, do not be afraid,'" Francis said.
As I have struggled all my life with fear of failure, fear of being ashamed/embarrassed in front of a crowd, I feel strongly inspired not to be afraid.
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